Since I was little I knew I felt different about the world. I had gay feelings since I was a child and was very confused about why I was feeling this way. My family would cut me off from the gay world from me. When someone walked by that was gay or the subject came out about it, my family would whisper the word “Gay”. Then I thought it was a bad word or something? Then I thought that the “normal” life was to be as Husband and wife with kids, and I wanted that life for a while- or so I thought. No, it was because society made me think that way.
I just wanted to be who I was. As a child sometimes I look in the mirror and see someone completely different. Because that person had to hide themselves from the world… I hated myself for it. I wanted to see my refection and see MYSELF and not the person my family made me. “These cloths are not me!” I slowly started to change my appearance, when I would shop with my aunt she thought it was weird I would go to both the “girls and guys” section for cloths. I didn’t care to me Cloths means No Gender.
Around my high school times I wasn’t sure what I was. I knew I was at least bi but I was afraid of telling anyone these confused emotions! Some of my friends who were gay decided to come out of the closet in high school. And I saw how different they were being treated everyday and laughed at with jokes for who they were. Then I told myself “High school isn’t really a good time to come out.” Kids there can be very child-ish and cruel and sometimes threat-full.
Someday when Im settled in my life, I plan to adopt a son. I want to teach him the way things are suppose to be. To accept EVERYONE from rare, color, religion, and sexuality. I will support him all the way, and inspire him. That’s what parents should be teaching their kids now! The teens you see on TV that are bullies, beat up people, tease others, or even have brought guns to school, you CANT BLAME THEM. It all started with parenting. I don’t want my son to go to school with a pink shirt and be made fun of and be called “FAG” just cause of the color? We need to change society now and it starts with the little ones. We need to educate them.
***COMING OUT VIDEO:***
***Best time to come out***
I believe the best time to come out is in College or when you’re 17-18. Cause by then your closer to adulthood and your parents may take you more seriously. Unless you know for a FACT they will accept gays and you. I am truly glad I waited till college to come out to people. People there are much more mature about it.
Note: Before you come out to anyone, you have to come out to yourself and know what you are. And Accept it with open arms and know that nothing is you’re fault and you have done NOTHING WRONG.
***Tips on coming out:***
* Don’t come out on Holidays
* Pick a good quiet place to come out/ Eye contact!
* Maybe bring a friend with you that already knows you’re gay/bi
* Coming out to your folks with a counsel may help too, if your afraid your parents will reject you.
* Think twice about coming out if you’re in High school, kids can be pretty immature there.
* See the communication you have with you’re parents now. If it’s a bad one already, then maybe you should wait a bit to come out.
* DON’T COME OUT when you had a bad day or you’re upset, it may cause negative energy. And if you feel negative about it, they might too.
* Be a Surviver not a Victim